Caroline and Her Kids
Caroline here. So, this is my first journal entry, ever. My therapist recommended doing this. I don’t know whether it will help. I mean, shit, I’m 39 already. What a time to start journaling. I just know that I’m really depressed. I’ve been down before, but this is worse.
My husband Dan just left me. He starting fucking that 20 year old girl he met online. Jerk. So it’s just me and the kids in the house. Stevie is 13 now, and Jenni is 11. I had a hard time explaining to them what happened. Well, I guess they took it better than I expected. Maybe they saw how miserable their father and I were together.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy again. I just don’t know what it will take. Whatever. That is all I want to write for today.
Okay, here is another attempt at writing this stupid journal. I actually do have something to write about today.
I got home from work from the office at 5:30, like usual. I took my bra off through my blouse, and flopped down on the couch. My bra is a full C cup, I’m happy to say. Jenni was home, and Stevie was off at baseball practice. Anyway, I napped for about ten minutes. I knew I had to get some dinner going for the kids. First I had to go to the bathroom, like really badly.
I went in to the bathroom. I’m not sure why, but I’ve never been in the habit of closing the door all the way. When I was on the toilet pissing, Jenni walked in on me. This is nothing new for us. I finished, wiped myself, and pulled my jeans and panties up. Then I went to the sink to wash my hands.
Then she used the toilet too. She pulled down her pink skirt and pink panties, and sat. Yeah she likes pink. As I was standing at the mirror, I heard her piss stream come out. I don’t know why, but I’ve always been turned on by that noise. Weird, huh?
I suddenly snuck a look at my daughter. She is beginning to develop her breasts. I saw them poking through her blouse. I was about her age when I started to get them. She will need a bra soon. I then noticed her young vagina, in its prepubescent form. The slit was mostly bare, but had few stray hairs on it. Then I looked away. I don’t know if she noticed me looking or not.
Anyway, Stevie came home, and we all had dinner. I fell dead asleep in bed. Same old shit.
Oh my God! I had the craziest dreams last night. It’s 6am, and I am writing this journal entry now so I won’t forget them. Dr. Zimmerman, what will you tell me what they mean? That I’m totally fucked up?
They were sex dreams. I usually love to have those. I was being eaten out by a woman. I could have sworn it was really happening. I felt it, and it felt good. I mean, I’ve messed around with women before. I always wondered if I was bisexual. I don’t know, whatever. My first time with a girl happened when I was sisteen. Then Dan and I had a few threesomes. Of course, they were mostly his idea. Not that I didn’t enjoy them, mind you.
Then I saw, it was Jenni doing it to me! I saw her young mouth on my pussy. She looked up and smiled at me.
At that point I woke up. I was so shocked by myself.
I fell back asleep, and had another dream. You won’t believe this, but Stevie was fucking me now! His cock was enormous. Again, it felt as if it was really happening, and I loved feeling him pound my pussy.
I woke up, and started to masturbate. I just had to. I rubbed my pussy with my right hand. I came so hard, like I hadn’t for a long time. I hoped the kids didn’t hear me.
I slept a little bit more after that. My alarm just woke me up. No more incest dreams, or at least that I can recall. I wonder if I will have those dreams again? Doctor, what do you think? Is a cigar just a cigar? (In this case, a really big cigar.)
Second journal entry for today, 7pm
Okay, I don’t know why, but I can’t stop thinking about those dreams. I was distracted all day at work. I just felt so horny. What’s wrong with me? Am I becoming some sort of pedophile? I’ve had sex dreams before. But this was about my own children.
Oh well, it’s Friday night. I don’t have to worry about functioning at work for a few days at least.
It’s Saturday night right now. Okay, I’ve officially done it. After I write this journal entry, I might have to burn it or something.
At 5 pm or so, I knocked on Stevie’s door. I wanted to tell him that it was almost time to eat dinner. I just opened it and went in. I usually do that, so I didn’t think much of it.
He was lying on his bed, naked! He was looking at his laptop, and there was hardcore porn on it! I didn’t know he was into that. I saw his cock was hard, and it is actually pretty big. He saw me, and quickly closed the computer. He pulled his underwear and jeans up. He covered his crotch with his hands.
He cried, “I’m sorry mom. I don’t do that all the time. I mean…”
I took a breath. I felt bad for barging in like that. A young man needs his privacy. I need to remind myself of that.
I walked over to his bed, and sat down next to him. I tried to console him. “It’s okay honey. I’m the one who should apologize. I shouldn’t have done that. You’re growing up. It’s okay that you’re curious about sex. I know that kids today have easy access to porn.”
“So you don’t mind?” he asked. I nodded yes. “It’s perfectly normal. You can always ask me any questions.” “Oh, thanks mom. I mean, Anthony showed me those sites. I really like them now. I look at them all the time.” I totally understood. I used to watch porn videotapes pretty often when I was his age.
Then I took a chance. I kissed him on the lips. I made sure to insert his tongue in his mouth. He looked back at me in shock. Then he smiled. He awkwardly kissed me back.
I said, “You know, you looked really good to mewhen you were naked. Your dick looked really nice. You’re gonna make some girl happy.” “Oh,” he responded. “You really think so? Thanks.” “No problem,” I responded. He removed his hands from his pants. I saw that he still had a hardon.
I asked him further questions. “Stevie, what is it that you like about those girls online. I mean, is it their tits, their pussies, their asses. Or is it something else” He looked at me, in disbelief. I never spoke to him that way before. It just felt right. I knew he was turned on by my dirty talk. “Well,” he answered. I kinda like seeing their butt holes. Do you think that is weird?”
I stood up, and turned around. I unzipped my jeans, and pulled them and my panties down. I pulled my ass cheeks apart, revealing my rosebud. I asked, “Do you think I have a nice butt hole too?” He answered, “Yeah, mom, it’s really hot.”
I continued. “I mean, I have a good body too, don’t you think?” He nodded yes. I started to unbutton my blouse. I wasn’t wearing a bra, so my tits came out right away. He stared at me, without saying a word. I pulled my jeans and panties all the way off. I have a really bushy pussy right now. Plus I hadn’t shaved my legs in a few weeks. I made sure to take off my socks too, so he could see everything.
So, I stood before him, now totally nude. He said, “Mom, you are really hot. But what happens now?” I responded. “Well, you could take off your clothes too.” He did.
He is skinny, but he does have a really nice cock. I wasn’t just complimenting him before. It’s pretty big, for a boy his age. I took it in my right hand, and started to stroke it. He moaned. That boy was in heaven.
I took it in my mouth, and started to suck it. I’m sure it was his first blow job. I did it for like five minutes, and he didn’t cum yet. Then I knew what I wanted to do. I climbed aboard him. I lowered my wet pussy onto his cock.
He grabbed my tits with his hands as we fucked. He fucked just like his dad. He came really quickly too. I felt him spew his boy cum into my body. I was a little disappointed that it was so fast, but it still felt good. I wasn’t on any birth control, but I didn’t care. I jumped off of him.
Then I ran out of the room, to the bathroom. He yelled after me, “Mom, where are you going?” I looked into the mirror. I was a bit confused. I don’t know why I did what I did.
Jenni walked in to the bathroom, as I was naked at the mirrot. She sat on the toilet to pee again. This time I really watched her as she pissed. I didn’t care if she noticed me anymore. I was so turned on watching the piss come out of her little cunnie. I wanted to taste it. I started to finger my pussy. She looked up at me, and smiled.
When she was about to wipe herself, I said, “Jenni, I noticed you haven’t been wiping the right way.” “What mom?” she asked. “What have I been doing wrong? I think I know how to wipe my pee!” I said, “Oh honey. I love you so much. Let me show you a better way to do it.” “Well, that’s kinda weird, but okay.”
I took a wad of t.p. and started to wipe her down there. At first it was a normal wiping motion, but then I slowed down. I started to masturbate her. I saw her eyes a bit glazed over. I knew she was getting pleasure from it. I took the paper to my face. I smelled it, then I licked it. Then I stuck my pointer finger inside of her. I finger fucked her. Then I stuck in my middle finger too.
“Mom, that feels so good,” she cried. I asked, “Jenni, do you play with yourself yet?” “Sure, I’ve been doing it for two years now. Rebekah showed me how.” Rebekah was one of her best friends. I couldn’t believe it. I wondered what else those girls did together.
I kneeled down, and kissed her with tongue. She kissed me back as intensely. I said, “I love you so much Jenni.” She responded, “I love you too. What else are we gonna do?” She looked excited.
I put my mouth to her crotch, and licked her cunnie. I started eating her out. She moaned, having that new experience (I think!) She took her right hand, and started finger fucking me.
Then I saw Stevie in the doorway, still naked. I don’t know how long he was there or how much he saw, but I didn’t care. His cock was hard again, and he was stroking it. Jenni looked up, and smiled at him.
I said, “C’mon Stevie, come join us.” He walked over to Jenni, and kissed her. Then he presented his cock to her. She knew just what to do, and took it into her mouth. She blew him for a few minutes.
Then he said, “Sis, can I fuck you?” She responded, “I thought you’d never ask.” She lay down on the bathroom floor, and he got on top of her. He didn’t lose much time, and stuck his cock into her. She yelped, as he took her cherry. I could tell she was having a good time. I put my waist to her face, and she started to eat me out.
He lasted much longer than before. It was like twenty minutes of this, him fucking her, and her eating my pussy. Then I came. Then she came. Then he did too.
He pulled out of her, with blood on his deflating dick. He said, “Mom, Jenni, that was the most amazing experience, like ever. I responded, “It sure was.” I went to the toilet, and started to piss. After I was done, Jenni wiped me. I got off again.
So Dr. Zimmerman, what do you think? All I know is that I finally feel a little happier. I hope won’t be the last of our family fucking sessions.
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